Remember when we met?
Remember when we discovered Acceptance?
Do you remember the songs we fell in love to?

I do.

Do you remember the first time I told you 'i love you'?
Remember how it felt to want to never let go?
Remember how hard the distance became?

I do.

Remember when I realized that no one else compared?
Do you remember trying to do it all over again?
Remember when we failed to let each other know all the things we thought?
How it started to fall apart?
That I didn't know what had happened?

Remember that perfect moment of clarity when we both knew what had happened and at the same time knew it was too late for us?

Do you remember how hard I fought?
How much I cried?
How much of myself was lost when you drove away that last night?
How I will never be able to be that boy ever again?
How something was completely changed in that instant?

Do you remember how much a struggled to make you hear me out? To give me one last chance? A do-over? Anything?

Remember that goodbye note you wrote me? The one I received one year ago today?

Remember the reply I never was able to get out quite right?
Of course not, I never sent it. I never even signed my name.

Well here it is. Everything I need to say.

I love you.
I always will.
Things are different now, and will never be the same.
Goodbye my friend.
Maybe in another life, another time or place, we will meet again.
I love you.

This is my eulogy of sorts. My goodbye note to my dearest of friends. The one I doubt she will ever even read. I have finally let go, finally gotten over her. But her voice, laugh, smile will haunt me for eternity. I will always miss her.

Goodbye my friend.